ilovemymarine12's Blog

Give me the greatness of heart to see,
The difference between duty & his love for me,
Give me understanding so that I may know when duty calls he must go,

Give me a task to do each day,
To feel the time while he's away,
When is in a foreign land,
Keep him safe in your loving hands,

When his duty is in the field please protect him & be his shield,
& when he is gone for so long,
Please stay with me and keep me strong.

I think I might of got all but 3 hours of sleep last night. I woke up this morning not wanting to get out of bed, I already knew that the day ahead of me was going to a very bad day I just had that feeling. An so far it has been so my feeling was right. I just happened to look at my DB's mom's status & notice that she had gotten a call from him saying he had gotten into San Diego safe & sound & was now at boot camp. Then she commented on my status saying, "I got a phone call on my answering machine this morning from Will saying he was in San Diego. It almost sounded like a robocal! I'm sure he hasn't had a lor of sleep since he left, but just get through today, get through tomorrow  the same weay you get through today, etc.." I just wish I could of got a phone call from him too but I do understand thay he knew if he called his mom more then likely she would let me know or that if she posted it on facebook I would see it. I miss him so much these days are starting to get longer an longer, I only have 86 days left an I am trying to get through them as best as I can. I am diying inside right now. I am just trying to get through this as fast & strong as I can. I am just hoping to get a letter from him soon!

I'm starting to realize how hard it is going to be on Saturday to say goodbye to him before he leaves Monday. I have already started to cry just thinking about it, but i'm trying to pull myself together an say everything is going to be alright. He has promised to write me an I have promised to write him at least every other day for the next 3 months. I know he is following his dreams an everything that he has ever wanted. I love him an support him with everything. He's the only one I EVER want to be with, an the one I want to be with the rest of my life. We are about to test our relationship to the extreme with us being so early in our relationship though. Everyone is saying that if we can make it through this we can make it through anything. I can not wait to get my first letter to him, because i know before he leaves im going to give him a letter his first letter while he is gone. I feel like I have rambled on an on but I am just kinda sharing what I feeel before my last goodbye is said. <3